On wed 15th Sept, after my OT, I was waiting for my company bus back to home at ar 8pm. I sudden gaze at the dark sky and felt something.. Wah..it was since such a long long time that I really go out at night for relax or shopping...haiz.. felt a sudden surge of lost of youth and being tied diwn lilke that and felt that its all not within my control anymore.. and I felt sad.. and wanted to call somebody.. but duno.. just tink not much ppl to consult as they are all busy.. then msg him just a simple greeting.. then when on my way inside the mrt train, he called me and ask me where to buy the soft toy Barney for Tiff.. I told him and said I can accompany him to go buy the soft toy with him as I hav not eaten my dinner yet at it was around 8.30pm le.. then I meet him at Lot 1..then I msg him to accompany me for dinner and he reply and said as a friend only.. At that time, I was also shocked that he reply this way., cos I din even tink of asking him to come back anymore..

Then when I meet him, I saw him bald.. cos he sign on army.. then I felt very awkward and uneasy cos too long din talk much le.. and sudden loss of words.. I tink its natural.. but eventually, I do the talk first and try not to make both of us so uneasy. anyway, after buying the soft toy, costing 30 plus dollars.. he bought me a shiLin Chicken chop.. and I was abit shocked cos he wun be so good unless he is asking me to do a flavour for him. but.. i din say anything.. 

then we took a cab to plaza singapura.. he is still the same.. He wants me to accompany him to PS to play arcade.. then he played two games and after that we went to a place to eat something and drink a beer. then I very blur. I tot its at Seeleng's workplace.. but I make a mistake and in the end, both of us laugh as we specially went to the Jap's eatery and giving up the seats in other's eatery. feel very embarassed le.. heheh.. from Lot 1 to going back my house, his phone keep ringing and he din wan to ans.. and he said its his boss who called.. but how can it be as his boss cant be so good to keep calling and he din even return back any calls. really bull shit of him.. to tink of this ridiculous idea.. anyway, i tink its her.. that bitch.. anyway, i told myself that its none of my business le..

buut do u noe that on our way to park mall, we hav to pass by Istana Park and noe what he did? he ask me whether I wan to hold his hands or not? I find it sudden of weird and find it funny.. but din laugh and respond and said that to him that dun ever let me hav this kind of illusion and I hate it most.. and he stopped.. and look sad..

All the way, I felt nothing much.. until inside the cab, on my way home, he send me home and he told me actually he meet me up that day becos the next day he is going to overseas training.. he seemed so real and I felt sad suddennly.. and eventually drop my tears and hug him.. Actually I noe he is lying to me.. but just duno why, I was so soft hearted when he told me a lie and said he is going overseas.. but when I went back, He did come up and see tiffany.. it was around 11 plus le.. and Tiffany still awake. tink she cant sleep cos normally, every night its me who hoax her to sleep lor.. then when she sees her dad..and so long din see le.. she still immediately wan him to carry lor.. maybe this is wat called father and daughter's affinity..telepath.. I believe in this..=) anyway, after he went back, I was troubled by watever he said and ponder alot of things again.. I was tinking if I din go meet him.. mayb I felt much more easier and relax.. and less troubled..

how silly am i,right?